Friday, May 25, 2012

Keep Life Simple - Wear Pants

6 months of the exact same wardrobe gets a little... well, boring. Remember how I recently found all the maternity clothes my sister gave me and I was so excited because I was getting tired of wearing the SAME THING day after day? Well, often in the morning, while I'm eating breakfast or showering, I think about what I might want to wear that day. Yesterday I wore a sun dress that I bought for our trip to Florida and found another little gem hiding in my closet. It was roomy enough around the waist that it just might fit around by baby bump... well, more like baby beach ball. I was excited to try it because, hey, something new I could wear! I was thinking about it fitting about my belly and forgot that before I was pregnant, it usually hit just below the knees. So when I put it on, it was about an inch or slightly so above my knees... at least from my high-above-my-belly perspective. No big deal, right? Well, not when you're pregnant and Mormon. Most girls (LDS or not) would just say, oh well, and go on with life. Some might try to make a too-short dress modest by adding a pair of leggings underneath. Like so:
Well, after criticizing the act so much, and being so excited about the possibility of wearing something new (ish), I caved. I tried it. I pulled out a pair of leggings I had (I wore them under skirts for dance classes... you never know what will happen) and put them on. They hit just below the knee, so you only got a few inches of legging. And I though to myself, "this just might work!" (Keep in mind, I don't have a full-length mirror... and there's a reason for that.) Then, Cory and I walked outside to the car to go to work. My dress was already riding, and I already regretted the decision. But it was too late. If I turned back now to change, we would be late, and I would be an indecisive mess. I decided I would just suck it up, and since I sit behind a desk at work, no one would know, or see. I felt terrible the entire (7 minute) drive to work. Then we had to get out of the car. The wind was a little blustery... but not Marilyn Monroe blustery. Even still, my dress continued to ride. I told Cory that I just didn't know how girls (LDS girls specifically) felt good trying to justify immodesty. I also told him that I would just end up being his inappropriately-dressed, pregnant, trophy wife for the next 5 minutes as we walked to our offices. I was not comfortable, and I just wanted to go back to the car, drive home, change, and come back later (...still do). The whole time, I judged myself negatively and joked that Cory needed to stop. He told me before the leggings went on that the dress might be to short, which I knew (he was really sweet about it). He was trying really hard to be supportive and just didn't mutter a negative word to me. So I appreciate that. I think he knew that this would be a learning opportunity for me and let me have it. And it really didn't take long for me to tell him exactly that. So that's where I am now. Uncomfortable, even behind a desk. I feel pretty bad about a decision I made just to try something new, and too lazy to turn back. And it's only 10am. What did I learn from this? 1. It just feels better to wear real pants - or clothes you don't have to worry about. (And no, that doesn't mean ugly or frumpy. Who wants to feel ugly and frumpy?) 2. I now have a recent experience to use to teach my daughters about the importance of modesty. (And how it feels when you're not.)Immodesty, even innocent immodesty, is just not worth it. 3. I can now say from experience that LEGGINGS ARE NOT PANTS! And yes, when I finish with work in 3 more hours, I am promptly going home and putting on some real pants.

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